As the mom of three amazing little boys, I breathe in thankfulness every day. I am thankful that I was able to be a mom, after having found myself on the end of the “negative” stick to many months in a row. I am thankful that I am able to write this blog from my kitchen table while my youngest son scribbles all over my to-do list. I am thankful that I have so many people in my life that are amazingly positive and uplifting. I am thankful.
But, I have to admit something to you.
I went through a week of being completely disconnected to end up where I am today. On October 27th the phone call came that my grandmother was gone from this earth. My last grandmother. Thinking back about the way I have felt since October 27th, I can only compare it with how a zombie would feel. I felt completely disconnected. Grey. Blank. I could hear people talking to me, but nothing registered. I managed to get dressed and stand there as hundreds of family friends came to say goodbye to her, but I could feel nothing but pain. I felt no thankfulness.
I was talking to a very special friend on Monday of this week and I told her that I felt blank. I felt like I was unable to feel. Unable to function. She asked me to reconnect myself. To ground myself. She asked me to send her a photo of something outside and completely connected to the earth. I sent her a photo of my front yard. Tuesday I sent her a photo of frost on the grass in the morning. Today I sent her a photo of my horses eating hay. Every day when I wake up I think about what photo I will send her today. What will I share of the earth and life around me with this dear friend? I think about all of the amazingly beautiful things around me. Grass. Trees. Rocks. Leaves. Horses. Frost. Rain. Snow. Wow.
The project not only grounded me but allowed me to reclaim my thankfulness and understand the importance of celebrating the life my grandmother lived. It has taught me how to celebrate the life that remains all around me. When you stop to see it and pay attention, it’s amazing how much beauty we miss. While the color and focus has slowly returned over the last few days, I have to say that I hope that everyone has amazing friends that will ground them when they need it like this gal has done for me.
I would like to invite you to a project that is on my heart and inspired by my dear friend. Every day I will be posting a photo on Instagram before I share it via text with my friend who also shares her “grounded” photo with me. I would love for you to share your “grounded” photo of thankfulness. You can see all of my images on Instagram by searching for #thankfullygrounded.
Tag your photos and become a part of it with us by posting your daily photos and tagging it. I can’t wait to see them.
PAM SMM, Advisor and Blogger at KristaConway.com